What a week it has been, flew back from the Gulf Coast last Wednesday and started teaching again the next day. I am very blessed with my occupation, the people I get to meet and share the practice with every class. I do feel like I could have used one day to settle back into life in DC. Instead I taught and my kids started different camps this week. Selfishly this helped with the emotional tears my daughter sheds every summer when we have to come home as she misses her beloved cousin. My sweet niece also sheds tears as we leave but I think my daughter is the bigger weeper. Basketball camp, her first time playing or trying the sport, has been a huge hit, helped her adjust back and softened her loss of being with her cousin 24/7.
What surprised me this year coming back was how emotional my son was about both going down to my sister's and coming back. He was excited to see his beloved cousin, my very patient almost 15 yr old nehphew, but did not want to leave his daddy. My husband could not join us this year so tears from both kids leaving their dad. When it was time to return, my son shed many tears about not wanting to leave his beloved Thor, my nephew whom I also adore, but he did want to come home to see his daddy. My post on emotional rollercoasters did pop into my head when dealing with their feelings.
My own sadness of leaving my sister and her family gets pushed to the back as I try to be present with their feelings. I guess I did this too well as my daughter asked me if I was sad to be leaving! I assured her I was but explained that I have lived very far from my family for over 20 years now, so I know I will be leaving but I also know that I plan to go back. Hard for my kids to understand completely at 9 and 5 but we fortunately will always be greeting new people and experiences, in turn we will also always be saying goodbye to people and experiences. Does not make it easy but to be healthy emotionally we all have to figure out the best way to process the feelings.
That is why I think for me I need to allow a day to transition back, one where I can just be present to process the joys of having seen my family, the sorry for not living closer and the hope of being together again in the near future.
I am a DC based yoga teacher, wife, mother of two kids and three animals who is using yoga both on and off the mat to find balance.